Hysteria, Hope, & Happiness

Today has been quite a day.

This morning I was an absolute emotional wreck for so many reasons, I honestly could not tell what was upsetting me more. I skipped both of my classes, which I know I will soon regret, and just basically stayed in my bed.

Why, you ask?

I just felt like my body was asking for it. I had to listen. I'm pretty glad I did, however, I felt like I could have done a lot more with my time. I was genuinely surprised when I saw the time on my laptop stating that it was nearing six o'clock.

On the bright side, I was able to write a letter to Nziina my Compassion child. Also, I am getting some studying time in tonight so that I won't be too off tomorrow when I go back to class!

I know yesterday's post was a tad morbid and I apologize. Sometimes I just need to get a little heaviness off of my chest, and I think it's a good thing when I do. It allows me to process everything and really take it all in. I am remaining hopeful, and in God's plan so that when He's ready to put me in new environments -- I will most certainly be ready. I trust in Him, I do.

Also, back to the morbid behavior, I am happy in other aspects of my life. I mean there are so many things, I am truly thankful for. I know that when I surround myself with my biblical community that I will hold on through the rapids.

A friend of mine on Facebook posted this verse today and it was what I needed to see,

"don't quit in hard times; pray all the harder." 
Romans 12:12

Quitting Facebook has been on my mind for so long. I haven't been able to decide whether I should do it. Or maybe I should just try to separate myself from it for awhile. What do you think? Could you quit Facebook?

Preparation.

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I feel thankful for Honduras.

I reflected over my lifestyle today and now I am begging for this mission trip to enlighten me and my unproductive mindset. I have all these opportunities around me right now to serve and be loyal to my God. I somehow keep hitting and missing in making the 'serve' part an every day service. Remembering to wake up everyday and understand and fully accept the amount of grace that has been poured into my life because of Jesus Christ.

Why must I cling to earthly idols that are filled with no satisfaction?

For example, I love food. I doubt I am alone in this thinking since it is Survival 101 to eat. We need food. However, sometimes I plan my day around what food I will be eating. Silly right? I can get pretty high maintenance too, i.e I hate sandwiches. I pretty much dislike cold food because I think warm food tastes better. Weird.

I am absurd. The thing is, I have always been able to be this way. I am lucky enough to have not only an oven, but a microwave, a Chick-Fil-A so that in desperate need I will have a good meal close by. I find myself not being able to just settle. The more I think about it, the worse it really is.

Now am I going to stop eating? No, let us not talk crazy. The thing is, must I really spend so much money on meals all the time? No, and not for financial reasons either (though my bank account is sighing in relief) but because in order to give my time to my Lord, I need to serve Him. When I have all this money left over, what on earth will I do with it?

Glad you asked.

I follow this lovely blog written by Annie and when it was lent she decided to do random acts of kindness, here's some examples :

1. Mail off surprises to a friend who's far away.
2. Do some spring cleaning and make your trash someone else's treasure.
3. Introduce a friend to a favorite movie or song.
4. Pay for someone's dinner.
5. Go to your favorite store and instead of buying something for yourself (like you know you would), pick out a "just because" gift for a friend or loved one.
6. Hang out with someone who could use the company.
7. Sacrifice time out of your day to call a long-distance friend.
8. Buy $5 McDonald's gift cards to keep in your glove compartment. Next time you're at a stoplight, use one to help someone in need.
9. Share a recent read with someone you know would enjoy it too (I just did this with One Thousand Gifts).
10. Purchase the meal or drink of the person behind you in the drive-thru line.
11. Make a care package for someone who is sick or shut in.
12. Create a playlist for someone you know would appreciate it.
13. Bring home a small surprise for your spouse or roommate.
14. Send flowers to a friend on a random day.
15. Bake a sweet treat or pot a pretty plant and leave it on your neighbor's doorstep.
16.Buy flowers for your mom.
17. Cook dinner for a few friends, maybe invite someone you might not normally.
18. Offer to help babysit for couple friends in need of a date.
19. Plan a date for your significant other. 
20. Say "thank you" to a teacher, coworker, or volunteer who normally gets ignored. 




 I think these serve as a much better use of my money and time, don't you? What other acts of service would you add to the list?